“There is always one moment in childhood when the door opens and lets the future in.”
The last time I heard this song was 15 years ago. On Sesame Street or something like that. Ever since that day, I was constantly (or sometimes not so constant) singing it to myself.
Like, there's sometimes a lapse of weeks (sometimes months, even) when I would totally forget about it, and then some event inevitably triggers my mind to recall of my childhood, and up pops this song into my mind again.
Ever since I heard it the first time, I've made it a point to find out the title (never did) and forced myself on remembering at least a chunk of lyrics out of the entire song, to make it easier to recognize it if I had ever to coincidentally come across it again.
My point is, 15 years later, I finally got it to my mind to search for it on Youtube (I smack myself right in the head for not having that thought much earlier!!) - it was like an ephiphany! One moment I was singing it to myself thinking "Ah... How I wish I could listen to it again" and the next moment I'd go "Shit, I'll just search it on Youtube." - and here it is!!
After over ten years of not listening to the song, I've finally found it again!
Sometimes, when I really think about it, I find it pretty miraculous how I've heard the song just once 15 years ago, and it got stuck in my head all this while even though I've never heard of it since then.
Not that I particularly loved it (in fact, I thought it was pretty lame and annoying but on the other hand interesting - it sort of caught my attention I guess), which is what makes it weirder that a song I didn't like that much would give me such an impact that drilled into my memory for 15 years and never left.
I think it was more to the reason that because I couldn't find it anywhere else after that, the more I was determined to drill it into my head so that I could search for it.
Or, maybe it was because even at that early age, I began to develop an interest in paradoxical situations.
Like how a problem can never be solved because of the initial problem itself, etc etc.
I even made up paradoxes myself (you'll have to admit, that's pretty admirable for a 5-tear-old) and went about thinking about it. It got more and more complex as I matured, until a time when I finally decided that it was pointless thinking of stuff that gave myself a headache - hence when I began to stop using my brain except when necessary.
And here's the dumbass I am today, trained to shut off her brain except for academic purposes only.
You spin my head right round right round when u go down when u go down down.
-Alvin and the Chipmunks-
There is just so much you can do with one laptop, and it kinda sucks when it turns out to be the only source of entertainment available.
I've tried almost every single thing you could possibly imagine with a laptop (minus porn), and I'm running out of ideas.
Sure, I've got my PSP, phone, iPod, whatever else I'm supposed to have...
I AM BORED.
*** Played Bang! the other day. It was really really fun! I'm gonna buy the game soon. I suggest you try it out.
Watched two movies today - Sherlock Holmes and Alvin and the Chipmunks 2.
I thought it'd be a really childish movie - the Alvin movie, i mean - but it turned out pretty good.
It was really hilarious and cute. Especially Britney.
No, not Britney Spears. What is wrong with you?
*Britney, cute? Hello?*
As I have said it before (and I'll say it again), I'm no movie reviewer, so I'll just leave it to you to watch the movie. All I can say is, I enjoyed it very much and I recommend you watch it too.
Just a fact: Vincent said that on the day the movie was released, all seats in the cinema were fully booked. I guess that means the movie should be really good? I mean, at least the prequel was good enough for people to want to watch the sequel? Ahah.
Sherlock Holmes was okay, I guess. There were a few parts where it was kinda exciting and thrilling...
Ah, I dunno. I guess you could watch it if you want to.
So much to do for the upcoming Lion Dance Competition event - contact printing companies, getting participants' info, getting logos done, rushing banner designs, T-shirt design (oh, shit!! Totally forgot about it till now!), booklet designing...
Sometimes I don't even know where to start.
I'm so not a planner.
Back to point - I'm bored.
P.S.: Am downloading Alvin and the Chipmunks wallpaper.
P.P.S.: Please tell me what to do to cure me boredom.
Author's Note: The following is a work of fiction. Any resemblance to persons living or dead is purely coincidental.
Especially you Jenny Beckman.
-Disclaimer, 500 Days Of Summer-
I hate Summer.
I'm only three quarters through this movie but I'll have to say, she is loathsome.
She ain't even that pretty and she acts like she thinks it is but it's no biggie, coz she's got this poor chap falling heads over heels over her and all she can say into his face after kissing in the copy room holding hands in Ikea, and having shower sex is that...
"We're just friends."
She isn't even fun to be with - of course, some may beg to differ. She does the stupidest things ever and ties her hair in that silly pony tail and talks to guys like its all very natural while pretending to be totally oblivious to the fact that she is making them falling for her *oh no, I didn't do that on purpose; I didn't know I was that attractive!* while she oh-so-naturally plays hard to get.
Then when she finally realizes somebody's falling for her, she acts all innocent and acts like its none of her fault; it's not her fault that she's so pretty and demure and innocent-looking.
And you know what's the worst part?
After she breaks it off, she says the worst thing a woman can ever say.
"I still wanna be your best friend."
It's like saying "Yeah, I don't wanna be with you anymore, but I still wanna hang around you and be your 'friend' so that while you're wallowing in your suffering, I can inwardly delight in the fact that I have yet again "unintentionally" -yes, that's the word for it: unintentionally- crushed someone's heart."
Isn't it enough that you've hurt him by uh... let me see...
1. Doing stuff couples do and then brushing it off by saying "We're friends"; 2. Breaking it off with him abruptly after you're done having your share of fun;
and now, you want to
3. Be friends with him.
Some girls think they're playing the good guy by saying stuff like "We're still friends" (and yes, personally I do prefer to remain friends with the person I've previously dated - that is, if he's okay with it), but seriously if the guy needs a break...
JUST GIVE HIM THE DAMN BREAK.
Let me just say this: Don't just walk up to him when you spot him on the train (or anywhere else in public) like it's a damn coincidence and say "Hi" like nothing happened, when you know very well the guy's not completely over it yet.
Do not - I repeat - DO NOT act like nothing's happened when the guy can't do the same.
Ahh, what the heck.
I shall now finish off the final quarter of this movie and we'll see how the ending goes.
Personally, I hope she gets desperate, the guy gets smart, and she gets dumped.
Okay, I've finished watching the movie. No, the girl didn't get dumped, and no, the guy didn't get smart - at least in my opinion he didn't.
Oh well, what can I say. Here I am insulting some girl while I myself am not doing any better either.
Waking up at 2 p.m., sitting all alone in my room watching sappy romance movies on a Christmas Day, skipping breakfast and lunch and then having a headache for lack of carb...
You know you're growing old when you find that new emerging singers are starting to get younger than you.
I remember there was a time when I looked up to artists and singers for two reasons.
One, they were popular, and gorgeous, and rich, and famous, and made great music, and were idolized by everyone.
Two, they were older than me.
Now, if I were their senior (which also implies that I'd have more life experience than they did), it'd be a different story altogether.
I just googled Pixie Lott and found out that she's a year younger than me. I know this shouldn't be such a big deal; young talents do appear once in a while, but...
I. Am. Getting. Old.
Okay, technically everyone gets old, but you get what I mean.
People whom I used to like; Britney Spears, Spice Girls...
They're getting ancient and I don't know if I could get myself to swing towards middle-agers.
My point is, when I was younger, I used to think that these young adults, being rich and famous and all... they're worth looking up to.
But now, I'm there. I'm that young adult. I'm that idea of the person my younger self used to wish she were.
My time was the "in" time, but now new singers are emerging and my time has become "The 90's".
In the 90's, there was no such thing as "The 90's". Sure, there were oldies such as the 60's, 70's, 80's... But there was no 90's. There was just... Now.
It used to be the 'in-thing' to love those hits like "There You'll Be" and "Hit Me Baby One More Time" but now, it's like telling people you love The Beatles.
I guess all I'm trying to say is, it feels different.
It feels different that from now on, the people whom I look up to, the people whose music I listen to, they're getting younger and younger, and at a point, it's gonna go way below my age and well, I have to admit that I hate looking up to people younger than me.
It's different that my mother was supposed to be the one listening to the 80's and me the "in" music, but now even I'm beginning to love music from the 90's.
Which was "in" 10 years ago, not now.
It's one thing to be able to claim that you've got more life experiences than others younger than you, it's another to be reminiscing over "oudated music", because that's what old people do.
Technology presumes there's just one right way to do things and there never is.
~Robert M. Pirsig
I CONFIGURED PCSX2 AND NOW I CAN PLAY PLAYSTATION 2 GAMES ON MY LAPTOP!
I think you'll agree that that's quite an accomplishment for a tech noob like me.
Okay, so if you're asking how I did it...
I'm not that good at giving tech tutorials coz I'm the one who's always googling around for instructions on tech stuff.
But here's a short tutorial for those interested to play PlayStation Two games but lack the cash to actually buy a real console (Or in my case, lacking a television in Singapore).
1. Buy a PS controller.
2. Buy a PS2 converter for PC so you can connect your PS controller to the computer via USB. You can easily get one from any video game shop.
3. Download PCSX2 and the bios. Google it yourself.
4. Install PCSX2.
5. Run PCSX2 (if it doesn't run, right click it and click on 'Run as administrator'), and go to Config >> Configure.
6. Under Graphics, pick GSdx9.
7. Under Cdvdrom: (a) If you're running games from PlayStation DVD's (which I would recomend), pick P.E.Op.S. CDVD Driver. (b) If you're running iso's/roms, pick Linuzappz Iso CDVD driver.
[From this point on, all the instructions I'm giving is based on option 7(a).]
8. Click set bios directory, and pick the folder which you have downloaded your bios in.
9. Under Bios, pick USA v02.00 Console.
10. Leave all other options as default.
Here's a screenshot: 11. Click OK. Then go to Config >> Graphics. Under Resolution pick windowed; under Renderer pick Direct3D; under Shader pick Pixel Shader 1.1.
12. Click OK.
13. Connect your PS controller to the computer then go to Config >> Controllers and cofigure your controller. If you need help in this part, I'd recommend that you jump off a building instead.
14. Go to Config >> Memcards, then click 'select Mcd' (kinda reminds me of McDonalds; urgh getting hungry); a new window will appear. Double click on Mcd001.ps2.
15. Go to Config >> Cdvdrom. This part gets a little tricky (not that the others weren't) coz you'll have to keep in kind that after you're done, if your game can't run properly, you may wanna make some changes in this section. Under Interface, pick W2K/XP then under Drive, pick the drive which you put you DVD in. Under Caching Mode, pick Async read. Leave the others as default. Click OK.
16. Go to File >> Run CD/DVD, and the PlayStation 2 screen will (hopefully) show up. Do your stuff (configurations, language, time, date, memcard formatting, etc).
17. Insert your DVD game, then go to File >> Run CD/DVD. It should work. If not, go back to step 15 and try doing some of your own editing there. I dunno - change the Interface or Caching Mode or something.
18. If it still doesn't work, then do whatever (Google, trial and error, try using another DVD, ask for help, reconfiguring using your own configurations) till it does.
At least that's what I did.
Took me 5 hours to finally make it work.
Word of caution: Make sure your PC has good specs; I tried it on my laptop and it got laggy; probably coz my graphics weren't good enough.
Anything else you don't know? Don't ask me. Ask Google.
I managed to run Resident Evil 4 on my laptop for a while (I got to the point where I managed to sluggishly kill my first flesh-eating creature) before getting sick of the laggy-ness.
Gosh, I can't believed I just wrote a whole tutorial on some tech stuff. I feel accomplished.
Been enjoying my holidays, hence the scarce updates.
Was at my grandma's yesterday and the day before.
The DVD player caught on fire at 2 a.m. while we were asleep. Luckily, My uncle noticed, woke up, and put the fire out before anyone got hurt.
The TV, DVD player, cabinet, and some other miscellaneous electronic applicances were damaged. Plus, the ceiling and wall turned black and soot was everywhere, such that for the next 24 hours, my nose shit was black instead of the usual white-ish/beige.
Don't ask me how I knew my nose shit was black.
Only up till recently that my nose shit turned back to its original color.
Here are some pics my 9-year-old cousin took of the aftermath:
Know what I think the main cause of the fire was?
That DVD player that started the fire was a no-brand cheapo electric appliance that was MADE. IN. CHINA.
Even my laptop turned sooty; had to wipe it clean. Luckily there was my keyboard protector, so not much soot went into my laptop.
Then, later after I fell asleep, I had this weird dream of something flapping its' wings at me. It got more and more real, and then I awoke to find a giant black shadow flapping its wings, flying back and forth in the bedroom, scaring me half to death.
Then, I heard my mum tell my grandma "The bat got into the bedroom".
MNG sale today!!
Didn't buy much; you know how sales are. All the nice clothes are gone, only ugly ones left.
Besides, sales tend to get a little messier than usual, and I HATE rummaging through piles and piles of unwanted clothes like I'm buying some secondhand stuff.
The odds of going to the store for a loaf of bread and coming out with only a loaf of bread are three billion to one.
Today, I bought these:
Sandals from Birkenstock - DISNEY LIMITED EDITION!!!
Don't know if I made the right choice, maybe I should have went for those Skechers...
I promise I will make every penny worth it. I will wear it everywhere I go - lectures, shopping, church - promise!
The previous unfortunate incident of my not-too-cheap pair of foot wear (remember the heels from Skechers?) will not happen again. This time, it will be worth my money.
Plus, I bought this weird tube of cream from Faceshop, which apparently removes your blackheads effectively.
You're supposed to apply a thin layer of cream on your face, wait 1 or 2 minutes, then gently use your finger to rub (yes, you heard me. Not rinse, not peel. Rub.) off the solidified substance off your face.
Worth the try.
Going to grandma's hometown tomorrow, and then to KL for some shopping; hopefully I'll get that 8 inch net book I've been wanting. Maybe from Lowyat or something.
Oh, oh. I bought some fake eye lashes too. Remember the last time I was complaining it was too expensive? I figured I'd buy it anyway, or else I'd never be able to get it off my mind.
Might as well buy it once and for all, and if I like it, good for me but if I don't, it'll just be another lesson learnt and I will thereafter know never to buy fake lashes again.
Better than not buying it at all and torturing myself by keeping myself wondering.
Whoever said money can't buy happiness simply didn't know where to go shopping.
Sorry for not updating for the longest time ever - okay, maybe not the longest time, but I guess it's been quite awhile - coz I was too busy celebrating post-exams.
(Where I come from, post-exams period calls for a HUGE celebration which usually ranges from a few days to a week or so.)
My mum, cousin, and grandma came to Singapore to visit my aunt cum shopping cum visit my mum's gorgeous daughter.
Anyway, we went lotsa places, plus, we ate lotsa food - all you can eat International & Japanese (I know International is inclusive of Japan so it's rather redundant to mention Japanese, but my point is, THERE WAS LOTSA SASHIMI!!) buffet at Vienna *gasp* - plus, we I spent lotsa money, plus, KEVIN TAGGED ALONG!!
Went shopping with my mum for the first time ever since I arrived back in Penang.
I have to keep explaining to my parents that I don't usually "spend like that" (if you know me, you should know what "spend like that" means) in Singapore; it's just that the only time I get to "spend like that" is when they're around to sponsor me.
The only instances when they see me is when I'm "spending like that", hence coming conclusion that I always "spend like that" in Singapore too.
I must say, I have tried my very best to be thrifty in Sigapore!! It can't be helped if I've tried my best but I still spend more than the average uni student.
Anyway, today, I bought...
A thriller book, Pharmaton (some kind of supplement to help me stay more focused - yes, I've finally succumbed to supplements; no more the I'm-so-healthy-I-don't-believe-in-supplements me), daily disposable contact lens, a PSP charger (coz my old one misplaced itself), some new PSP games, and an adapter to connect Play Station 2 controllers to PC via USB.
I'm sounding pretty techie, huh?
Yup, I'm going to play PS2 games on my laptop.
And yup, I just mentioned that I got myself daily disposable contact lenses (yay!! I'm so excited coz it's my first time wearing them!), of which I've never heard any of my friends thinking of trying it yet so far (to which I assume is due to it's pretty high cost), and apparently I'm the first among my friends to try it out.
Correct me if I'm wrong.
Nope, I'm not playing PS2 games on my laptop yet, coz I haven't figured out how to configure the emulator correctly. Yeah, I guess I'm a tech noobie after all.
If you think I'm relaxing right now, you're wrong.
Okay, technically you're correct, BUT I do have work to do.
For instance, getting around to writing my book (at this rate, I'll never get it done) and busying about those damned Publicity and Publications stuff for the upcoming Lion Dance competition hosted by NTU Lion and Dragon Dance Troupe.
Yup, I'm head of Publicity and Publications.
And I'm dying.
First, let me watch a few episodes of Full Metal Alchemist and bury my nose in the new book I bought today.
P.S.: I know I'll sound like a real noob if I say this but... I DIDN'T FREAKING KNOW A PAIR OF FREAKING FAKE LASHES COULD COST SOOOOOO MUCH!!!!! BLOODY LASH MANUFACTURERS ARE BLOOD-SUCKERS!!
Or is it just me, who has never bought a pair of fake lashes in her life before, hence having no idea how much they usually cost?
Stress doesn't kill, it only tortures you until you decide to kill yourself.
I'm not camwhorish; I don't upload 10 identical photos of myself to scare people off, I don't snap 10 identical photos of myself and my boyfriend just to show off, I don't make cute faces into the camera coz it'd be homicidal to viewers, I don't snap pictures every single time i go shopping because I actually do DO shop instead of showing off 10 identical pictures of myself in the same outfit.
That's what bimbos do; they lack the depth of intelligence to express themselves through words, hence the convenient usage of the over-rated idiom, "a picture speaks a thousand (identical and meaningless) words.
I'm not against those who act like bimbos; I know some are real intelligent on the inside (for e.g. the 'Bimbo' that went to Oxford *you know who you are*) - what can I say, I have my own bimbotic moments. I'm just disgusted at some real idiots who only have beauty but no brains (if you think you're one of them, you probably are), but still try to justify themselves by disgusting others.